I do not have Gastroparesis. What now Doc? So much for that perfect fit. I think it brings my body joy to torture me with all these 'negative' tests. In 5 years I think the only test that has given me any answers are the ones (i.e. the two) that diagnosed me with POTS. Beyond that I am completely normal...or so abnormal that I have fooled some of the best and brightest doc's in the business. I wish I could just quit but I know I'll never be happy if I give up even if I never get answers. At least I'm trying. Could I get a little credit for that? I don't think it's healthy for a spirit to be broken this many times in such a short period of time. I HATE medicine, I HATE tests, I am not particularly fond of doctors and I absolutely HATE POTS!! UGGHH. A word of advice; research is always good but also dangerously depressing. Take caution.
In my research today I discovered that if I pass out and someone decides to sit me up they could in fact kill me. Good to know! I also learned that although I have the medical vocabulary of most med students I understand little to non when researching actual medical sites that might actually help me understand my own body. Too bad. I think they need to sit down, think hard and write all the information they have about POTS in English and call it 'POTS: A comprehensive guide to your body in terms you can actually understand'. Just a thought.
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